One Moment In Time

Yap Pin Xiu, Singapore's double gold medallist at the 2020 Tokyo Paralympics

'Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise making the best use of the time, because the days are evil' Eph 5:15-16

The Tokyo 2020 Olympics and Paralympics Games are both over. Both were held in Jul-August 2021 delayed by the raging Covid-19 pandemic. Even so the pandemic especially in Tokyo raged on during the Games. Many criticised holding these games at such bleak times. I was not one of them. I felt for the athletes, the time and sacrifice they gave to training, should not be downplayed. For  many these games gave them the opportunity of that one moment in time

'One Moment in Time' is the theme song of the 1988 Summer Olympics held in Seoul Korea. The sentimental ballad expresses the very sentiments of the Olympian; the sacrifices and the crowning glory of an Olympic medal. It is exactly the pride that Singapore's paralympian swimmer, Ms Yap Pin Xiu must have felt when she received two gold medals. 

Each day I live

I want to be a day to give the best of me

I'm only one, but not alone

My finest day is yet unknown

I broke my heart for ev'ry gain

To taste the sweet, I face the pain

I rise and fall, yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams

Are a heart beat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best

And I want it all, no time for less

And I've laid the plans

Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams

Are a heart beat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime

If you seize that one moment in time

Make it shine

Give me

One moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams

Are a heart beat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will be, I will be free

I will be free

I will be

I will be free

This song captures the moments of personal achievements; feats that we should all recognise and celebrate. Yap Pin Xiu has achieved much and being young, she will achieve more in the future. Do you know that in 2018 she was a nominated member of the Singapore Parliament? She is a five-time Paralympic gold medallist, a one-time IPC gold medallist and holds two world records. She was awarded the Singapore Pinjat Jasa Gemilang (the national Meritorius Service Medal). She deserves her one moment in time.

The ancient Greeks have a word for this defining moment, Kairos (καιρός) meaning the opportune or critical moment. It defines time in terms of the meaning of time as distinct from Chronos (χρόνος) which can be defined as the movement (passage) of time.

Kairos suggests that time has value and is not just a quantity. In the New Testament, Kairos is used to describe the appointed time or the God-ordained time. For example,

'You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.' Romans 5:6 

'The time has come, He said. The kindom of God has come near. Repent  and believe the good news.' Mark 1:15

Indeed there are God-given moments such as the times when Jesus walked this earth. For many Christians, there is not one moment in time compared to the time when we received salvation and confessed Jesus as Saviour and Lord, 

"In the time of My favour I heard you and in the day of salvation I helped you." I tell you, now is the time of God's favour, now is the day of salvation.' 2 Cor 6:2 

On hearing the Olympic anthem sung by Whitney Houston, we would have concluded that the singular acheivement, well deserved no doubt, is made possible entirely by human efforts. Not detracting anything from the celebratory moments of the Olympian medallists, it will do well to remember especially for Christians, to appreciate God's hand in all our greatest moments and achievements. 

'So let's not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don't give up.' Galatians 6:9-10

We should learn to recognise the God-appointed times, those times when His will and His times intersect with ours. That will be our one moment in time; God has made all things beautiful in His time.

In His Time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful, in His time,
Lord, please show me everyday,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time

You make all things beautiful in Your time

Lord my life to you I bring

May each song I have to sing

Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time

Lionel

Photo from Straits Times

Take Me Deeper

 

'Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.' 1 Cor 9:24

Calvin Miller in the introduction to his book 'Into The Depths of God' told of a family visit made to the Great Barrier Reef in Australia. Calvin and wife snorkeled in the shallow waters whilst their son scuba-dived. Mr Miller later wrote, “Ask me if I’ve been there, and I will hastily answer yes. So will my son. However, the truth is that the content of our experience was vastly different. We will both spend the rest of our lives talking about that experience and our enthusiasm will always be exuberant. But only our son really knows the Reef; only he understood the issue of depth.” (Ref 1)

We live our lives in the shallows. This is the era where communication by Twitter and information exchanges by 30 sec sound bites are preferred. We are ever so busy, moving from one place to another, skipping from one assignment to the next; Zooming and sending emails. We scarcely have time for each other, to talk and make conversation. We scarcely have time for ourselves.

It becomes serious when we apply the same hurry and superficiality to the nurturing of our spiritual selves, our souls. Spiritual depth needs time, contemplation and discipline. It had better be; we are touching the lives of others. Our testimony and witness shape the lives of our friends. We cannot be play-acting, dwelling on the peripherals and hope to get away with it. To be authentic we must go deep; into the very depths of our souls. 

Think of a huge tree with spreading branches giving shade. We know instinctively that the roots of this tree must be equally gigantic growing deep into the earth; giving it stability to weather any storm. The Bible described a fulfilled man in Psalm 1. 

'He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither.' 

Bishop Robert Solomon in his book, The Race, called for discipline to train the soul and thereby achieve spiritual fitness. (Ref 2) He wrote, "An athlete has to put in hours of training before he or she can hope to excel in their sport and win a race. Spectators only see the final results, and feel the excitement of watching a race or an athlete perform new feats - going faster, jumping higher or throwing further. But behind these achievements lie hidden hours of private discipline and the hard work of constant training."

St Paul also urged the training of the soul 

‘You've all been to the stadium and seen the athletes race. Everyone runs; one wins. Run to win. All good athletes train hard. They do it for a gold medal that tarnishes and fades. You're after one that's gold eternally. I don't know about you, but I'm running hard for the finish line. I'm giving it everything I've got. No sloppy living for me! I'm staying alert and in top condition. I'm not going to get caught napping, telling everyone else all about it and then missing out myself.’ 1 Cor 9:24-27 The Message

To get deep, we need a teacher to make the dive with us. That teacher is the Holy Spirit.

'The Spirit, not content to flit around on the surface, dives into the depths of God, and brings out what God planned all along.' 1 Cor 2:10 The Message

Bishop Solomon calls this coaching, "An athlete has a coach who pushes to his maximum potential. Being human, the athlete in training has to manage his own doubts, laziness, pride, stubbornness and blind spots. That is where the coach comes in. The coach offers a different perspective as he observes the strength and weaknesses of the athlete. He gives feedback and corrects mistakes and bad habits that he finds in the athlete. He offers motivation, and encourages his trainee when he feels like giving up or when the going gets tough."

The practice of meditation can help us go into the depths of our souls and make the deep dive. Father Laurence Freeman in his book, Light Within, wrote "Meditation is the way to be fully open to the power of the Spirit. All these different parts of our being come together under the guiding influence of a power that transcends both thinking and feeling and unites them both at a higher level of consciousness. This is the power of the Holy Spirit." (Ref 3)

'Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given to us by God. And we impart this in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual truths to those who are spiritual.' 1 Cor 2:12-13

John Wimber understood this as he wrote the Spirit Song.

Oh, let the Son of God enfold you with His Spirit and His love

Let Him fill your heart and satisfy your soul

Oh let Him have the things that hold you and His Spirit like a dove

Will descend upon your life and make you whole

Jesus, O Jesus, come and fill Your lambs

Oh, Come and sing the song with gladness as your hearts are filled with joy

Lift your hands in sweet surrender to His name

Oh, give Him all your tears and sadness, give Him all your years of pain

And you'll enter into life in Jesus' name

Lionel

Updated article: 1st published 6 Jul 2009

Ref 1: Calvin Miller, 'Into the Depths of God' Bethany House, 2000

Ref 2: Robert M Solomon. ''The Race - Finding the Real Journey in Life' Genesis Books, 2008
Ref 3: Laurence Freeman, 'Light Within. Meditation as Pure Prayer' Canterbury Press, 1986

Deep Dive Photo by Edmidentity

Great Is Thy Faithfulness

Jeremiah by Rembrandt

 'The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your Faithfulness.' Lamentations 3:22-23

The Rijksmuseum, Amsterdam, described this painting by Rembrandt of the lament of the prophet Jeremiah as 'The crestfallen Prophet Jeremiah rests his weary, old head on his hand. He laments Jerusalem going up in flames - in the background - whose destruction he had prophesied. Rembrandt heightened the sense of drama with powerful contrasts of light and dark.' (Ref 1)

A truly dramatic portrayal of the Lamentations of Jeremiah. 

Equally artistic but lost in English translation, is the Biblical Book of Lamentations. It is a collection of poems attributed to the prophet Jeremiah lamenting the destruction of Jerusalem in 586 BCE by the Babylonian Conqueror, Nebuchadnezzar. Rev (Dr) Gordon Wong, Bishop of the Methodist Church in Singapore, pointed out the intricate Alphabet Acrostic Songs of the first four chapters of Lamentations. 

An acrostic is a poem in which the first letter of each line spells out a word or message. An alphabet acrostic spells out the letters of the alphabet e.g. ABCDEF. Since the Hebrew alphabet has 22 letters, Lamentations 1,2 and 4 have 22 verses whereas Lamentations 3 has 66 verses, with a triplet of 3 verses beginning with one letter of the Hebrew alphabet.

Whatever the artistic rendering, we should not miss the Bishop's message in which he contrasted two opposing realities especially apt in these times; where there seems to be  hopelessness, God renders hope by His faithfulness. 

The Bishop contrasted Lamentations 1-3

'I am the man who has seen affliction under the rod of His wrath; He has driven and brought me without any light; surely against me he turns His hand again and again the whole day long.'

with Lamentations 3:21-23

'But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Thy faithfulness.'

The Hebrew name of the Book of Lamentations is Ekah which can be translated as alas or how. Chuck Swindoll wrote, 'Lamentations pictures a man of God over the results of evil and suffering in the world. But at the heart of this book, at the center of this lament over the effects of sin in the world, sit a few verses devoted to hope in the Lord. This statement of faith standing strong in the midst of the surrounding darkness....'  (Ref 2)

These are bleak times too. The delta variant of the Covid-19 virus is raging unrelentingly worldwide and Singapore is no exception, notwithstanding the high vaccination rates. During such times, we are wont to ask of God, in the Singlish vernacular of Singaporeans "How Ah?" as the Hebrew title of Lamentations suggested. But rather than wallow in despair at the apparent staying of God's hands, it may do us well to read and re-read Lamentations Chapter 3. Then, between adversity and hope, we will be encouraged by the  faithfulness of God which has been showered on us time and time again and renewed every morning. 

• Lost in Suffering - 'I am the man who has seen affliction under the rod of His affliction.' Lamentations 3:1

• Hope in Silence - 'Let him sit alone in silence when it is laid on him; let him put his mouth in the dust - there may yet be hope.' Lamentations 3:28-29

• Found by Love - 'For the Lord will not cast off forever, but, though He causes grief, He will have compassion according to the abundance of His steadfast Love.' Lamentations 3:31-32

• Refreshed by Faithfulness - 'The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning, great is Thy faithfulness.'  Lamentations 3:22-23

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father

There is no shadow of turning with Thee

Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not

As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be

Great is Thy faithfulness

Great is Thy faithfulness

Morning by morning, new mercies I see

All I have needed, Thy hand hath provided

Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me

Summer and winter and springtime and harvest

Sun, moon and stars in their courses above

Join with all nature in manifold witness

To Thy great faithfulness, mercy, and love

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth

Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow

Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside

Great is Thy faithfulness O Lord, great is Thy faithfulness!

Lionel

Inspired by a Sermon of Bishop Dr Gordon Wong entitled My Redeemer Is Faithful And True

Ref 1: https://www.rijksmuseum.nl/en/collection/SK-A-3276

Ref 2: https://www.insight.org/resources/bible/the-major-prophets/lamentations

Sleep Easy At Night

 

Sleeping Soundly

 'When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.' Proverbs 3:24 

Having difficulty with sleeping? It seems that getting a good sleep preoccupies health conscious people these days. The general advice is to get about 7-9 hours of good sleep at night. However many people, stressed by the pressures of modern day living, hardly get the sleep they need. 

The Singapore Ministry of Health's web portal, Health Hub, noted that Singapore is the 3rd most sleep deprived city, after Tokyo and Seoul, in a study of 43 cities. The Singaporeans' lack of sleep is partly due to a culture of working long hours and that this drive may impinge on our ability to get good sleep. 

Singaporeans trade sleep for more work, thinking that the wealth we can bring with more work will allow us to live life fully with great satisfaction. Never mind if we lose sleep. Some even see the ability to function with less sleep as a badge of honour. The MOH Health Hub warns that 'if you think that you are doing fine with less sleep, you are probably wrong. And if you work in a profession where it's important to be able to judge your level of functioning, this can be a big problem.' 

Sleep affects decisions but the reverse is also true, decisions affects sleep. This is what the Bible says in Proverbs 3:21-24 

 'Preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight; they will be life for you, an ornament to grace your neck. Then you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will not stumble; when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.' 

No one can guarantee that we will make good decisions all the time. The trick is to try to make those decisions in the will of God. Then peace of mind will come, when we learn to exercise sound judgement using the wisdom God provides.

This is the same observation and advice that St Paul gave in Philippians 4:6-7:

'Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.' 

Notice that St Paul spoke not only of peace of mind but also the peace of heart. This is transcendental peace, a peace that comes from above, a peace that only Jesus can give.

'Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid.' John 14:27 

There is a dramatic account of a storm on the Lake of Galilee in the Gospel of Mark,

'Late that day, He said to them, "Let's go across to the other side." They took Him in a boat. A huge storm came up. Waves poured into the boat, threatening to sink it. And Jesus was in the stern, head on a pillow, sleeping! They roused him, saying, "Teacher is it nothing to you that we are going down?" Awake now, He told the wind to pipe down and said to the sea, "Quiet! Settle down!" The wind ran out of breath; the sea became smooth as glass. Jesus reprimanded the disciples:  "Why are you such cowards? Don't you have any faith at all?" They were in absolute awe, staggered. "Who is this, anyway?" they asked. "Wind and sea at His beck and call!" Mark 4:35-41 (The Message)

Sleep in the midst of a storm? How is that possible? It is possible with the transcendental peace that Jesus gives. Then we will be  

• At Peace with God
• At peace with ourselves
• At peace with othaers 

This is the same message brought to us by the Christmas carol, Silent Night with its gentle refrain 'Sleep in Heavenly Peace.'

Sleep Well! 

Lionel

And Tigers Come At Night

Yunnan Stone Forest - The Tiger

'Lord what do I look for? My hope is in You' Psalm 39:7

In late Oct 2009, when visiting the Stone Forest in Kunming, Yunnan, we chanced upon a rock formation that took the shape of a tiger. Immediately the song 'I dreamed a Dream' came to mind, with its haunting line 'but the tigers come at night'. The song is a lament; the dreams of youth, once ever so promising, turned to ashes with the passing of time and with it, the dawning of hopelessness.

The song was sung by Fantine in the musical 'Les Miserables'. She had a love affair with a student, Tholomyes but he deserted her, leaving behind an illegitimate child. She became a prostitute, a destitute so poor that she had to sell her hair and teeth to clothe and feed her bastard child. Her once growing love became a bitter disappointment.

Fantine was emblematic of the plight of women, their sufferings, social wretchedness and hopelessness during the days of their exploitation in 18th and 19th centuries. 

There was a time when men were kind

When their voices were soft

And their words inviting

There was a time when love was blind

And the world was a song

And the song was exciting

There was a time

Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in times gone by

When hope was high and life worth living

I dreamed, that love would never die

I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid

And dreams were made and used and wasted

There was no ransom to be paid

No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night

With their voices soft as thunder

As they tear your hope apart

As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side

He filled my days with endless wonder

He took my childhood in his stride

But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me

That we will live the years together

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be

So different from this hell I'm living

So different now from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream

I dreamed

In the Covid-stricken circumstances of 2019-present, many of us must feel that the tigers have come at night and shattered our dreams. It is not only the patients that are the victims. Many have dreams in life yet to be realised. Others are happy with life having achieved their dreams. Unexpectedly, the pandemic hit and disrupted everything.

  

It is not easy to face the ‘tigers’ and one should not wish for them to come a-haunting. If they do come, beware; despair can really break a person. Will we lose hope? Will we lose faith? 

St. Francis of Assisi once prayed, where there is despair let us sow hope. The Psalmist in Psalms 42 and 43 searched for answers and questioned the soul within, not once but three times. The answer is to put our hopes in God.

'As the deer pants for the water,

so my soul pants for you, O God.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him,

By day the LORD directs his love,

at night his song is with me.

How can we hope at such hopeless times? Christianity answers with the call to rely on God. When everything seems to be falling apart, we can

 

Rely on God's presence

Rely on God's provision

Rely on God's promises

Although the shattering of dreams can be devastating, take comfort in the words of Jesus in John 16:33  

'I have told you these things, so that in Me you will have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.' John 16:33

Finally, 

'Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer' Romans 12:12

Lionel

1st Published 3 Feb 2010

Body Still, Mind Silent, Spirit Soars

Outside the Church of San Damiano

'Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on His law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yield its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither - whatever they do prosper.' Psalm 1:1-3

It was 9 Sep 2007 and we spent that week at Assisi to appreciate the life and deeds of St Francis of Assisi. Arriving at the Church of San Damiano we surveyed the Spoleto valley and noticed several sculptures in the garden including one of a Franciscan monk meditating while facing the valley below.  

St Francis was near San Damiano when driven by the Holy Spirit he entered the ruins of the old church to pray and meditate. While meditating before the Crucifix, it was written that 'he was invaded with a great spiritual consolation and, as he affixed his tearful eyes on the cross of the Lord, with the ears of his body he heard a voice descend to him from the cross and say three times Francis, go and repair my church which, as you see, is all in ruins!. On hearing that voice, Francis remained astonished and trembling, being in the church alone and, perceiving in his heart the power of divine language, felt kidnapped of his senses.'

The sculpture commemorates this event in the life of St Francis when during meditation and deep in prayer, the saint heard the voice of God. 

Father Laurence Freeman, a Benedictine monk and Director of the World Community of Christian Meditation, said "Meditation is a universal human wisdom, sorely needed today in all walks of life and at all stages of life. Although the roots of meditation in a transcultural and transhistorical tradition is not framed in a particular belief system, for those with a religious faith, learning to meditate may also offer surprising new ways of understanding and deepening of their faith" (Ref 1). Christians can practise meditation in the Christian contemplative traditions.

For those who would like to begin the discipline of Christian meditation, I  recommend reading the book written by Father Laurence Freeman, Light Within -  Meditation as Pure Prayer (Ref 2)

Why meditate? Meditation ushers us into the presence of God. We know that the Holy Spirit is always present in the lives of Christians but the moment of meditation is the time of awareness of God. St Francis in meditation and prayer at San Damiano reached a oneness with the Holy Spirit. 

I learned during meditation, to keep my body still, my mind silent, then in that stillness and silence to allow my spirit to soar. These stages can occur sequentially or simultaneously but it will require discipline and practice. 

Still. Keeping the body still sets the stage for a perfect reflection or contemplation, as this picture taken of the Black Dragon Pool in LiJiang, Yunnan Province demonstrated.

A Perfect Reflection, Black Dragon Pool, LiJiang

I found that keeping the body still is the easiest step to achieve. With the right relaxed posture the body sets the stage, the same way that this pool of still water sets the stage for the image of a beautiful pleasant scenery reflected upon it. Throw a pebble into the pool and it disrupts the image. In the same way, a body movement will disrupt the contemplative moment.

Silence. The next step, keeping the mind silent is more difficult. The body may be still but the mind is always moving, always thinking and always distracting. Those who meditate will suggest to keep away these distracting thoughts by repeating a mantra.  

This picture was taken just before dawn from a hotel window in Grenoble, France

Just Before Dawn, Grenoble, France

There is a phrase, 'The darkest hour is just before dawn.' I think that the darkness in that phrase is not meant in terms of light but sound; of quiet and peace. Just before dawn, before the world stirs, before the birds sing, is the most peaceful moment of the day. In the same way, if we want to hear the voice of God, we should remove our thoughts from distractions, we should keep our minds silent and peaceful.

Soar. Eric Liddell the Scotsman, Missionary and Olympian said, 'When I run I feel God's presence.' He meant that when he is engaged in his favourite activity he senses a connectivity with God. It is like the bird on the wind, soaring in the presence and oneness with the Creator.

The Bird on the Wind

I have not experienced this stage of meditation but those who practice meditation for many years will bear witness; their spirits soar. The Bible teaches that our spirits co-mingle with the Holy Spirit and identifies us as children of God. At that moment in meditation, I hope to pay attention to God and allow my spirit to soar in His presence. Father Laurence shared of the ability to pay attention to a unique person, the manifestation of the Divine, the presence of Jesus Christ.

 

So Christian meditation is not just about a personal uplifting of the spirit, it involves the Triune God and our spirit communicates with the Holy Spirit. It is silent prayer as noted by St Paul in Romans 8:26 (CEV)

'In certain ways we are weak but the Spirit is here to help us. For example, when we don't know what to pray for, the Spirit prays for us in ways that cannot be put into words. '

On the surface,  everything in meditation seem to be centred within that is towards the inner self or going to the inner room. This is a paradox because the post-meditation outcomes are all reaching out towards an others-centredness. In a seminar at DP Architects, Father Laurence shared that meditation 

• Creates community and connectedness with others
• Releases the power of forgiveness and reconciliation
• Removes the clutches of fear
• Promotes selfless attention towards others
• Expresses unselfish love 
• Heals relationships with self and others. 

The discipline of meditation changes a person in two directions, inwardly and outwardly. Inwardly, towards a life of contemplative worship. Outwardly, towards a life of selfless service. Come to think of it, this duality anchored the life of St Francis of Assisi and many other saints and heroes of the Christian faith.

 

May Christian Meditation set my spirit free for worship and service.

Lionel

Ref 1: Laurence Freeman OSB. Good Work - Meditation For Personal and Organisational Transformation. Meditatio 2019.

Ref 2: Laurence Freeman OSB. Light Within - Meditation as Pure Prayer. the Canterbury Press Norwich 2008

 

Come To The Water

On the Road to Damascus

“The Lord your God is with you. He will take great delight in you; he will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing” Zephaniah 3:17

The search for God is vividly described in Psalms 69:2-3, 

'I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold. I have come into the deep waters; the flood engulfs me. I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched. My eyes fail, looking for God.'

Many understand the sensations of hunger and thirst as basic needs of the body. Others, however, hunger and thirst not for food and water but desire emotional, intellectual and spiritual nourishment. Still others crave for moments of spiritual ecstasy as vividly portrayed in the sculpture by Gian Lorenzo Bernini of St Teresa of Avila in the Church of Santa Maria della Vittoria in Rome. 

Ecstasy of St Teresa of Avila 

St Teresa described this experience, "I saw in his hand a long spear of gold, and at the iron's point there seemed to be a little fire. He appeared to me to be thrusting it at times into my heart, and to pierce my very entrails; when he drew it out, he seemed to draw them out also, and to leave me all on fire with a great love of God. The pain was so great, that it made me moan; and yet so surpassing was the sweetness of this excessive pain, that I could not wish to be rid of it. The soul is satisfied now with nothing less than God. The pain is not bodily, but spiritual; though the body has its share in it. It is a caressing of love so sweet which now takes place between the soul and God, that I pray God of His goodness to make him experience it who may think that I am lying."

Neuroscientists studied the ecstasy of a religious experience, through studying the excitation of different parts of the brain during deep meditation. An article in the New Scientist entitled ‘In Search of God’ described scientific experiments by Andrew Newberg and Eugene d’Aquili during which eight meditation practitioners underwent brain imaging. These neuroscientists noted a relative deactivation of the parietal lobe that regulate attention and self awareness but the limbic system which regulate emotions became activated. Apparently the same findings will occur for Tibetan monks as for Franciscan nuns, indicating that whatever the religious beliefs, there is a common pathway in the brain for the ‘touching God experience.’ 

Skeptics have used these findings to argue that God has no real existence, that the presence of God is actually just a result of chemical induction of brain functions. On the other hand, one can argue that God made and designed us so that we would have the neuro-ability for this interaction. Blaise Pascal said, "There is a God-shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, the Creator made known through Jesus.”

The Cliffs of Solva, Wales

The hunger and thirst for a special relationship with God is a natural yearning because we are created in God’s image. The wonderful news is that while we search, God reaches out to establish a warm and personal relationship with us. 

“The Lord your God is with you. He will take great delight in you; he will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing” (Zephaniah 3:17). 

St Paul, thought that he knew God. He was so adamant and bigoted in his belief that he strenuously persecuted the Christians. However, while steeped in this activity of searching out Christians to persecute, Christ found Paul instead. It was a spectacular and vivid visitation on that road to Damascus. Later, Paul wrote to the Church at Philippi about this unsurpassing find 

'But whatever gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything as a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage that I may gain Christ.' Phil 3: 7-8

 

Jesus offers to all of us the same privilege of a relationship with God. He admits us into this special relationship on the condition of our faith and belief in Him. For the religious mystics amongst us, we can indeed delve into the realm of the limbic system activation when we meditate. But be it as it may, this experience profound or ordinary, only occurs by the grace of God; a gift we receive which we do not deserve. 

The prophet Isaiah wrote, 

Come, all you who are thirsty, Come to the waters. Seek the Lord while He may be found; call on Him while He is near.' Isaiah 55:1,6   

And Jesus said come to the waters

Stand by my side

I know you are thirsty you won't be denied

I felt every teardrop when in darkness you cried

And I strove to remind You 

That for those tears I died

You said You'd come and share all my sorrow

You said You'd be there for all my tomorrow

I came so close to sending You away

But just as you've promised

You came there to stay

I just had to pray

Your goodness so great I can't understand

And dear Lord I know that all this was planned

I know you're here now and always will be

And Your love loosed my chains

And in You I'm free

But Jesus why me 

Jesus I gave You my heart and my soul

I know that without God I'd never be whole

Saviour You opened all the right doors

And I thank you and praise You

From earth's humble shores

Take me I'm yours.

Jesus said, 

'I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.'

Lionel

The Compassionate God

 

Michelangelo's Last Judgement, Sistine Chapel

'Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression.... You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy. You will again have compassion on us; You will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.' Micah 7:18-19

I was converted to Christianity from a religion of ancestral worship and of praying with joss sticks to very fierce looking gods in the Chinese temples. I remember going to Haw Par Villa and staring in fear at the figurines of souls being tortured in hell. My mum would whisper in my ears this would be the fate of naughty children. My vivid memories when visiting the Chinese temples were the large statues of fearsome Taoist mythical gods down on me. They look merciless. 

My childhood home at Kim Chuan Road was about 200 metres from a neighbour who was a temple medium. Visitors would come to ask the medium to tell their fortune or bring offerings. Then he would performed a ritual in which he would go into a trance, whipped his body and cut his tongue with a sharp sword. I was so afraid each time I heard the clanging of gongs and cymbals; more so when returning home from school I had to pass by the house-temple just a few feet away as the medium went into a trance. 

There is a annual procession of the Nine-Emperor Gods from Lorong Tai Seng near where I lived, to Kusu Island. We were brought to watch the processions which were loud and noisy. The men who carried the palanquins of the gods would go into a trance, move and shake uncontrollably as the palanquins were made to sway from side to side. Firecrackers were lighted and thrown at the feet of the pall bearers. I was always frightened.

So, accompanying our parents to worship in these temples or being made to join the processions of the gods, children became acquainted with good and evil and the reality of hell. We grew up trapped in a fatalistic view of life and its inevitable cycles of naughty deeds and punishment. The only recourse, it seems, was to appease these Gods by offerings, incense, prayer and worship.

How can we can escape the entrapment; the fierce  stares of these idols? How can we escape the gates of hell? How can we atone for our sins? 

Fortunately from this religious background of deeds, rewards and retribution, I found the God of Christianity and discovered that my sins can be forgiven. I no longer need to live in fear of hell and recrimination. I discovered the compassionate God of Christianity whose forgiveness is well extolled in Psalm 103. 

'Praise the Lord, my soul and forget not all His benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pits and crowns you with love and compassion.' Psalm 103:2-4

'The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.' Psalm 103:8

'He will not always accuse nor will he harbour His anger forever; He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.' Psalms 103:9-10

'Praise the Lord, my soul and forget not all His benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion.' Psalm 103:3-4

As a father has compassion on His children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him.' Psalms 103:13

However, this forgiveness is not simply dispensed automatically as with modern day ATMs. Instead it is related to the salvation found in Jesus Christ. It starts with the realisation of sin and evil and culminates in the compassionate forgiveness of sin in Jesus Christ. The truth of John 3:16-17 turned me from living in fear to living in faith.

'For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.' John 3:16-17

This dual and intertwining dispensations of salvation and forgiveness is magnificently portrayed in the painting of The Last Judgement by Michelangelo on the altar wall of the Sistine chapel, St Peter's Basilica, Vatican City. Michelangelo depicted human characters and their passages to hell or heaven, the consequences of life. At very centre of this human drama is the compelling image of Jesus Christ, whose forgiveness rescued us from condemnation to salvation.  

This same epiphany is also exclaimed in Charles Wesley's hymn  'And Can It Be'. Kindly listen to it, beautifully sung by the 200 voices choir of Chennai India.

And can it be that I should gain

An interest in the Savior’s blood
Died He for me, who caused His pain
For me, who Him to death pursued?
Amazing love! How can it be
That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?
Amazing love! How can it be
That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?

He left His Father’s throne above
So free, so infinite His grace
Emptied Himself of all but love
And bled for Adam’s helpless race
‘Tis mercy all, immense and free
For O my God, it found out me!
Amazing love! How can it be,
That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?

Long my imprisoned spirit lay,
Fast bound in sin and nature’s night
Thine eye diffused a quickening ray
I woke, the dungeon flamed with light
My chains fell off, my heart was free
I rose, went forth, and followed Thee
Amazing love! How can it be
That Thou, my God shouldst die for me?

No condemnation now I dread
Jesus, and all in Him, is mine
Alive in Him, my living Head
And clothed in righteousness divine
Bold I approach the eternal throne
And claim the crown, through Christ my own
Amazing love! How can it be
That Thou my God, shouldst die for me?

And so, rather than cringe under the accusing and condemning eyes of Taoist mythical gods, I seek forgiveness from a compassionate God, the same way that David did in Psalm 51:1-3

'Have mercy on me, O God, according to our Your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know that my transgressions and my sin is always before me' 

Like the Wesleyan hymn this prayer is well articulated by a modern hymn All We Like Sheep by Don Moen

All we like sheep have gone astray

Each of us turning our own separate way

We have all sinned and fallen short of Your glory

But Your glory is what we desire to see

And in Your presence is where we long to be

O Lord show us Your mercy and grace

Take us to Your holy place forgive our sin 

and heal our land we long to live

In Your presence once again

Taking our sickness, taking our pain

Jesus the sacrifice Lamb has been slain

He was despised rejected by men He took our sin

Draw us near to you, Father through Jesus Your Son

Let us worship before You cleansed by Your blood

Have you been to Jesus for this cleansing power? The cleansing of the soul from sin is not just by right or good deeds or making restitution. The cleansing is provided entirely by the grace of God.

Lionel