And Tigers Come At Night

Yunnan Stone Forest - The Tiger

'Lord what do I look for? My hope is in You' Psalm 39:7

In late Oct 2009, when visiting the Stone Forest in Kunming, Yunnan, we chanced upon a rock formation that took the shape of a tiger. Immediately the song 'I dreamed a Dream' came to mind, with its haunting line 'but the tigers come at night'. The song is a lament; the dreams of youth, once ever so promising, turned to ashes with the passing of time and with it, the dawning of hopelessness.

The song was sung by Fantine in the musical 'Les Miserables'. She had a love affair with a student, Tholomyes but he deserted her, leaving behind an illegitimate child. She became a prostitute, a destitute so poor that she had to sell her hair and teeth to clothe and feed her bastard child. Her once growing love became a bitter disappointment.

Fantine was emblematic of the plight of women, their sufferings, social wretchedness and hopelessness during the days of their exploitation in 18th and 19th centuries. 

There was a time when men were kind

When their voices were soft

And their words inviting

There was a time when love was blind

And the world was a song

And the song was exciting

There was a time

Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in times gone by

When hope was high and life worth living

I dreamed, that love would never die

I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid

And dreams were made and used and wasted

There was no ransom to be paid

No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night

With their voices soft as thunder

As they tear your hope apart

As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side

He filled my days with endless wonder

He took my childhood in his stride

But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me

That we will live the years together

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be

So different from this hell I'm living

So different now from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream

I dreamed

In the Covid-stricken circumstances of 2019-present, many of us must feel that the tigers have come at night and shattered our dreams. It is not only the patients that are the victims. Many have dreams in life yet to be realised. Others are happy with life having achieved their dreams. Unexpectedly, the pandemic hit and disrupted everything.

  

It is not easy to face the ‘tigers’ and one should not wish for them to come a-haunting. If they do come, beware; despair can really break a person. Will we lose hope? Will we lose faith? 

St. Francis of Assisi once prayed, where there is despair let us sow hope. The Psalmist in Psalms 42 and 43 searched for answers and questioned the soul within, not once but three times. The answer is to put our hopes in God.

'As the deer pants for the water,

so my soul pants for you, O God.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him,

By day the LORD directs his love,

at night his song is with me.

How can we hope at such hopeless times? Christianity answers with the call to rely on God. When everything seems to be falling apart, we can

 

Rely on God's presence

Rely on God's provision

Rely on God's promises

Although the shattering of dreams can be devastating, take comfort in the words of Jesus in John 16:33  

'I have told you these things, so that in Me you will have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.' John 16:33

Finally, 

'Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer' Romans 12:12

Lionel

1st Published 3 Feb 2010

Body Still, Mind Silent, Spirit Soars

Outside the Church of San Damiano

'Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on His law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yield its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither - whatever they do prosper.' Psalm 1:1-3

It was 9 Sep 2007 and we spent that week at Assisi to appreciate the life and deeds of St Francis of Assisi. Arriving at the Church of San Damiano we surveyed the Spoleto valley and noticed several sculptures in the garden including one of a Franciscan monk meditating while facing the valley below.  

St Francis was near San Damiano when driven by the Holy Spirit he entered the ruins of the old church to pray and meditate. While meditating before the Crucifix, it was written that 'he was invaded with a great spiritual consolation and, as he affixed his tearful eyes on the cross of the Lord, with the ears of his body he heard a voice descend to him from the cross and say three times Francis, go and repair my church which, as you see, is all in ruins!. On hearing that voice, Francis remained astonished and trembling, being in the church alone and, perceiving in his heart the power of divine language, felt kidnapped of his senses.'

The sculpture commemorates this event in the life of St Francis when during meditation and deep in prayer, the saint heard the voice of God. 

Father Laurence Freeman, a Benedictine monk and Director of the World Community of Christian Meditation, said "Meditation is a universal human wisdom, sorely needed today in all walks of life and at all stages of life. Although the roots of meditation in a transcultural and transhistorical tradition is not framed in a particular belief system, for those with a religious faith, learning to meditate may also offer surprising new ways of understanding and deepening of their faith" (Ref 1). Christians can practise meditation in the Christian contemplative traditions.

For those who would like to begin the discipline of Christian meditation, I  recommend reading the book written by Father Laurence Freeman, Light Within -  Meditation as Pure Prayer (Ref 2)

Why meditate? Meditation ushers us into the presence of God. We know that the Holy Spirit is always present in the lives of Christians but the moment of meditation is the time of awareness of God. St Francis in meditation and prayer at San Damiano reached a oneness with the Holy Spirit. 

I learned during meditation, to keep my body still, my mind silent, then in that stillness and silence to allow my spirit to soar. These stages can occur sequentially or simultaneously but it will require discipline and practice. 

Still. Keeping the body still sets the stage for a perfect reflection or contemplation, as this picture taken of the Black Dragon Pool in LiJiang, Yunnan Province demonstrated.

A Perfect Reflection, Black Dragon Pool, LiJiang

I found that keeping the body still is the easiest step to achieve. With the right relaxed posture the body sets the stage, the same way that this pool of still water sets the stage for the image of a beautiful pleasant scenery reflected upon it. Throw a pebble into the pool and it disrupts the image. In the same way, a body movement will disrupt the contemplative moment.

Silence. The next step, keeping the mind silent is more difficult. The body may be still but the mind is always moving, always thinking and always distracting. Those who meditate will suggest to keep away these distracting thoughts by repeating a mantra.  

This picture was taken just before dawn from a hotel window in Grenoble, France

Just Before Dawn, Grenoble, France

There is a phrase, 'The darkest hour is just before dawn.' I think that the darkness in that phrase is not meant in terms of light but sound; of quiet and peace. Just before dawn, before the world stirs, before the birds sing, is the most peaceful moment of the day. In the same way, if we want to hear the voice of God, we should remove our thoughts from distractions, we should keep our minds silent and peaceful.

Soar. Eric Liddell the Scotsman, Missionary and Olympian said, 'When I run I feel God's presence.' He meant that when he is engaged in his favourite activity he senses a connectivity with God. It is like the bird on the wind, soaring in the presence and oneness with the Creator.

The Bird on the Wind

I have not experienced this stage of meditation but those who practice meditation for many years will bear witness; their spirits soar. The Bible teaches that our spirits co-mingle with the Holy Spirit and identifies us as children of God. At that moment in meditation, I hope to pay attention to God and allow my spirit to soar in His presence. Father Laurence shared of the ability to pay attention to a unique person, the manifestation of the Divine, the presence of Jesus Christ.

 

So Christian meditation is not just about a personal uplifting of the spirit, it involves the Triune God and our spirit communicates with the Holy Spirit. It is silent prayer as noted by St Paul in Romans 8:26 (CEV)

'In certain ways we are weak but the Spirit is here to help us. For example, when we don't know what to pray for, the Spirit prays for us in ways that cannot be put into words. '

On the surface,  everything in meditation seem to be centred within that is towards the inner self or going to the inner room. This is a paradox because the post-meditation outcomes are all reaching out towards an others-centredness. In a seminar at DP Architects, Father Laurence shared that meditation 

• Creates community and connectedness with others
• Releases the power of forgiveness and reconciliation
• Removes the clutches of fear
• Promotes selfless attention towards others
• Expresses unselfish love 
• Heals relationships with self and others. 

The discipline of meditation changes a person in two directions, inwardly and outwardly. Inwardly, towards a life of contemplative worship. Outwardly, towards a life of selfless service. Come to think of it, this duality anchored the life of St Francis of Assisi and many other saints and heroes of the Christian faith.

 

May Christian Meditation set my spirit free for worship and service.

Lionel

Ref 1: Laurence Freeman OSB. Good Work - Meditation For Personal and Organisational Transformation. Meditatio 2019.

Ref 2: Laurence Freeman OSB. Light Within - Meditation as Pure Prayer. the Canterbury Press Norwich 2008

 

The Folly of Futile Legacies

Mr S Rajaratnam was a founding father of Singapore, patriot, politician and the former foreign minister. He died at the age of 90 years in Sep 2006. In 1988, soon after he stepped down from the Singapore cabinet, Mr Rajaratnam was asked what he would do during his retirement from politics. He replied: “You know in Alice in Wonderland, there is the Cheshire cat who goes away but leaves his smile behind? I hope I will go that way too.”

A local newspaper, the Straits Times, commented, “The answer was quintessential Raja, unexpected, yet unexpectedly apt, leaving a smile on his listener’s face.” I agree. Many people wish to be remembered as the ones who have made a difference. They want their lives to matter. Like Raja, I prefer a less assertive influence, just a smile.

This same sentiment was expressed when I retired as Executive Vice Dean of the Lee Kong Chian School of Medicine, Singapore's third and newest medical school on the 31 Mar 2019. I had the unique opportunity of starting the School from scratch in 2011 in partnership with the Imperial College London. On retirement, I told colleagues that I think the only lasting legacies are the memories of friendships made. I went on to sing "The Way We Were", a song chosen to celebrate all the friendships made at LKCMedicine and the memories of moments spent with one another. 

How could most of us believe that in our lifetimes we could contribute sufficiently to leave a lasting legacy? Any achievement we make will very quickly, be forgotten. Those who aspire to make a significant mark hardly leave anything behind to amount to anything in the long run.

The desire to leave lasting legacies found expression in ancient history in the Tower of Babel. The tower of Babel was probably the first mega-building project in history. A building that was to be so gigantic it would be an architectural marvel and would have brought fame and posterity to the people who built it. What were the motives of the builders? What vision did they have in their sight? Gen 11: 4 recorded:

"Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth."

The tower was to be a centre for their identity, their security, an expression of their community. It was to be something of lasting value and significance to pass on to the world. However, they were attempting to do the whole project without a single reference to God. In the end, the Bible recorded that God destroyed the tower and they became separated from each other in confusion and misunderstanding. Now tragic: Lofty Aims - Great Downfalls.

Most of us do not live special lives. We are seldom called to make great contributions or to perform heroic deeds. If we are feeling too ordinary, St Francis of Assisi gave all of us  a chance to build a simple but lasting legacy. This chance is found in his famous prayer:-

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive,

it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen

The key word to this prayer is the word, instrument. If we are willing to be instruments, God’s instruments then we have the chance to leave behind something more lasting than bricks and mortars. The builders of the tower of Babel had got it all wrong while St Francis of Assisi got it all right.

May our aspirations instead be "Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace"

Lionel

Being Poor

"Blessed are  you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God." Luke 6:20

The first of the eight beatitudes (blessings) declared by Jesus in the Sermon on the Mount is the blessing to be poor. What's more Jesus stated that the poor will inherit the Kingdom of God, a Kingdom Jesus said was imminent when he began his earthly ministry in Galilee.

The poor inheriting heaven is a very radical idea. While Luke refers to material poverty, Matthew added a spiritual spin to this by stating 'poor in spirit'. The Bishop Solomon (Ref 1) interpreted this as a 'sense of spiritual bankruptcy and brokenness'. The poor in spirit are those who had come to the end of their ropes, causing them like the prodigal son to truly repent. This repentance becomes the gateway to the Kingdom of God, one of the first messages taught by Jesus, "The time has come, he said. The kingdom of God has come near. Repent and believe the good news!" Mark 1:15

There is a relentless drive in Singapore to get out of the poverty trap. At first glance it seems the right thing to do but who could have predicted that a self-absorbed materialistic world would appear in the 21st century? It seems that the chief preoccupation is the accumulation of wealth and not the eradication of poverty. It is said that Singaporeans value cash, cars, condominium, credit cards and country clubs more than anything else. This rat race can cause some to fall by the wayside. No one may be on hand to pick them up. Bishop Solomon cautioned, 'In their wealthy state, the rich may end up not not caring at all for God. The poor probably have a better chance of learning dependence on God. Their material poverty may make it easier for them to recognise their spiritual poverty too and turn to God for mercy and help'. 

Does anyone really care? There are two individuals in church history that embraced poverty as their way of life, caring for the poor and downtrodden. Both became saints, Saint Francis of Assisi and Saint Teresa of Calcutta. 

St Francis founded the Franciscan order and he was renowned for love of simplicity and practice of poverty. He was nicknamed Poverello. He was known for his fondness and love for the downtrodden, the poor and the lepers.

Mother Teresa founded the Missionaries of Charity, a order of nuns first started in 1950 in Calcutta and now has over 5000 nuns in more than 150 countries. They took vows of poverty and 'give whole-hearted service to the poorest of the poor'.

Both led inspiring lives and have influenced countless people. Consider the wisdom of their quotations:

Saint Francis:
'Lord make me an instrument of thy peace, where there is hatred let me sow love'.
'While you are proclaiming peace with your lips, be careful to have it even more fully in your heart'.
'Start by doing what is necessary; then what is possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible'.

Saint Teresa:
'It is not how much you do but how much love you put into what you do that counts'.
'Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love'.
'If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one'.

The lives of these two saints and their legacies indicate that the most long-lasting impact on people and on the world are not made by people of means and riches but often by those who are poor and saintly. 

Unfortunately very few of us bother. In one of his sermons, John Wesley lamented, "One great reason why the rich, in general, have so little sympathy for the poor, is, because they so seldom visit them. Many do not know because they do not care to know: they keep out of the way of knowing it". 

One Singaporean exception is my friend Dr Goh Wei Leong. Wei Leong was a prosperous general practitioner, who exchanged his Maserati for Charity when he founded HealthServe Singapore in 2006. HealthServe's mission is to serve disadvantaged migrant workers in Singapore through healthcare, counselling, casework and social assistance. There are many migrant workers in Singapore and Wei Leong started a charity clinic in a poor area in Singapore call Geylang at first seeing the patients himself and he enthused other Christians to assist in this work. HealthServe now have 4 clinics/offices in Singapore. In recognition of his ministry and service, Wei Leong received the Straits Time Singaporean of the Year Award in 2017.

Two years ago, my church, Charis Methodist Church started a migrant workers ministry in the Joo Chiat area under Gladys Han.

We should not forsake the downtrodden and poor. Indeed Jesus said, "Blessed are the poor, the weak will become strong and the poor rich'. For such grace and blessing, let us 'Give Thanks with a Grateful Heart'

Lionel

Ref 1: Robert M Solomon, The Sermon of Jesus, Genesis Book, 2013